He intentionally made me mad. He knew I'd get mad if he did it again. And he did it again. Three times now. He knows that I love all of my friends, and they mean a lot to me; I could never stand to hear someone insult them right in front of my face. Well, that's what he did. He complained to me, told me that he didn't like some certain people that I hung out with. I decided not to tell Jessica, but Cindy instead. I can trust her. I know I can. I told Cindy the truth today. I still like, if not love, him. I don't know what to do. He's got my heart, he thinks he's given it back already, but he hasn't. He really hasn't. But I don't understand how someone who gets on my nerves so badly sometimes, can still hold on to my heart for so long. I don't understand him. We're talking about my friend, Beth. She's hecka close to me. I said it annoys me when people change, whereas I was talking about him. I think that's what led to our breakup. I wish we didn't break up. Back to the point. After I told him it annoyed me, he said, 'it annoys me that you care about Beth more than me,' and I thought, 'What the crap??' We're not even dating anymore, and he thinks that he should be more important than one of my best friends, whom I've known longer than I've known him?? He has no right. Even though we did date, and I do still care about him, I care about my friends, too. He doesn't know that I still feel love for him, but he has to stop! He can't care about me, because, if he did, he wouldn't hurt me so hard by ragging on my friends like that! I'm tired of him, I'm tired of loving him, but I can't stop. I wish I could... I wish so hard...